"The Lord Will Not Let Me Quit"

"The Lord Will Not Let Me Quit" Text

The Lord will not let me quit. No matter how much I want to, the Lord will not let me quit. I tell Him I give up. I tell Him it is too much. I tell Him I can't take it anymore. I cry so hard I start sniffling. I cry so hard I can't see. I tell the Lord even when I can't tell people. I tell the Lord when it is about people. I don't even know how many times I have told the Lord 'I'm done'. I can't count how many times I have told Him 'I can't take it anymore'. Every day is filled with constant intense pain. But it is more than that. It is more than all these health issues. I grew up feeling intense depression and anger. I let things in that I didn't know better at that time. I haven't completely escaped that. It can still be triggered. But there is more. I keep being in complicated frustrating situations that are not caused by me. I often feel stuck. I know it could be worse and I know many suffer more than I do. But that does not lessen how intense my pain is. That does not lessen how I feel. I feel for others. I pray for others. I try to pray for everyone. I never want to stop praying for people. There have been so many times that I felt like I was completely done. The Lord let me cry. He let me get it out. Then the Lord pulled me back into the mission He has for me. If I did not have my brief in the Lord, I would have quit a long time ago. I know the Lord is the reason I don't stay in the 'I quit' mindset. He has a mission and a purpose for me. I want to honor that even when I feel I can't take it anymore. In the middle of that intense feeling, I don't care about anything. After the Lord pulls me out of the intensity, I get back to His mission and purpose. I can't permanently quit because the Lord will not let me.

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