"My Focus Now"

"My Focus Now" Text

The pain has gotten much worse. Sometimes even eating hurts. That affects what I do and don't do. My breathing has gotten worse. That affects what I do and don't do. This vertigo has gotten worse. That affects what I do and don't do. I am so tired. I am beyond running on empty. That affects what I do and don't do. There is more that affects what I do and don't do. Physically, all I want to do is sleep. Physically, I don't want to do anything. Emotionally, I spent a lot of my life in deep depression. I don't think depression like that ever completely goes away. But I feel a lot more stable than I used to. I know I have a purpose. I know I have a mission. I am very focused on the mission the Lord gave me. My priorities are not the same as they were most of my life. My priorities are not the same as they were a few years ago. I started looking deeper into things. I learned a lot. I look at things differently now. My priority is pleasing the Lord. I want to honor Him. I want to honor the mission He gave me. I want to honor the gifts He gave me. That is where my focus is. That is where a lot of my thoughts go. Every day I fight the feeling of just wanting to sleep. I try to keep my thoughts and focus on the Lord. I believe I am on the right path now. I am thankful to those that support me. I am thankful to those that are honestly there for me.

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