Thoughts and Feelings on April 29th

April 29th is one of those dates that can hit me. It seems it is hitting me harder this year. My neighbor/friend/honorary family Louise died years ago. It took me by surprise. She was always there for me and Moira (my cat/4 legged child/best friend). Louise and her husband were there for me. Louise called me her daughter. She invited me to family things. This year, April 29th is hitting me harder than usual. I still have the decorative flower she gave me the last time I saw her. I didn't know that would be the last time. I also have other things she gave me. In two days (May 1st) will be my father's birthday. I know that day will be hard. Sometimes it hits me hard that he is no longer here. I dreamt about him last night. I knew this would be an emotionally rough week. It was also a physically rough morning. Even though I didn't hit the floor (thank God) I did fall in the bathroom. The crutch slid out from under me. I was going down but the Lord stopped me from going all the way down. I didn't injure anything (thank God) but I did irritate some things. Some things are just the arthritis. But I did irritate my right hand. On top of all that my breathing has been flaring up some. I may try to take it a little easy today. I haven't decided it yet. For the moment I am going to try to relax.