"Sometimes" Text

"Sometimes" Text

Sometimes, I'm tired of hanging in here. Sometimes, I'm tired of always being in pain and feeling so tired. I know many go through more than I do. But sometimes it all just feels too much. Most pain medicines don't help at all. One over the counter medicine helps some but if I take it too much it aggravates my stomach. The pain is never gone but some days it is more intense. My first thought every morning is I don't want to get up. I quickly thank the Lord for getting me through the night but that is not my first thought. This vertigo has gotten so much worse. It even makes walking a fall risk. Everything has gotten worse. Sometimes, I feel I can't take it anymore. I never understand when people tell me I'm strong. I feel so weak. Physically but emotionally too. I usually cry when no one sees. My eyes tear a lot so people wouldn't even know if I was crying. I vent to the Lord a lot. I don't want to complain but sometimes it is too much. Sleeping issues. Breathing issues. Constant headaches. Constant pain. Abandonment issues. Depression. And more. Sometimes it feels too much. Sometimes, I don't want to be in Bible Study or watch Services. I just want to sleep. I have to fight this flesh daily. I am running on empty. I know the Lord will pull me through no matter how I feel. He has a mission for me. I want to honor the Lord no matter how I feel emotionally or physically. If you feel any of this, I am praying for you.